I have been thinking about this most unique of relationships, partly in the wake of Medicine Unboxed 2013, and also as I am currently writing chapters for a book on Illness and the Arts.
Jonathon Tomlinson has written a very comprehensive and insightful essay on the notion of the ‘patient’ (http://abetternhs.wordpress/2012/04/09/whats-in-a-name/).
Here, I just want to draw attention to words from those who have expressed their experience of the patient-doctor through their poetry.
Firstly, Raymond Carver, who died as a result of lung cancer, and his poem What the Doctor Said:
‘He said it doesn’t look good
he said it looks bad in fact real bad
he said I counted thirty-two of them on one lung before
I quit counting them…’
Later in the poem:
‘he said I am real sorry he said
I wish I had some other kind of news to give you’
Carver concludes:
‘I just looked at him
for a minute and he looked back and it was then
I jumped up and shook hands with this man who’d just given me
something no one else on earth had ever given me
I may even have thanked him habit being so strong’
This is one of my all time favourite poems. It manages to say so much with so few words – the essence of poetry itself – and within 23 short lines the poem delivers such a strong sense of what the sufferer was experiencing at the ‘other side’ of the desk.
Secondly, to another poet who died as a result of cancer, Julia Darling. The anthology The Poetry Cure, which she edited with Cynthia Fuller, contains much to enlighten those who wish to gain insight into the suffering of illness.
In her poem Too Heavy, Darling directly addresses the medical profession:
‘Dear Doctor,
I am writing to complain about these words
you have given me, that I carry in my bag
lymphatic, nodal, progressive, metastatic…’
‘…And then you say
Where are your words Mrs Patient?
What have you done with your words?
Or worse, you give me that dewy look
Poor Mrs Patient has lost all her words, but shush,
don’t upset her, I’ve got spares in the files.
Thank god for files.’
Finally, also from The Poetry Cure, from Carole Satyamurti’s Out-Patients:
‘My turn. He reads my breasts
like braille, finding the lump
I knew was there. This is
the episode I could see coming —
although he’s reassuring,
doesn’t think it’s sinister
but to be quite clear…
He’s taking over,
he’ll be the writer now,
the plot-master,
and I must wait
to read my next instalment.’
The poets say it all.
I have nothing to add.
CQ